I’m feeling uncharacteristically sentimental this week. I believe it has something to do with my mom (pictured left at 22).
While I was selecting a Mother’s Day card, I picked up what I thought was a simple card (you know, one that says “Happy Mother’s Day!” on the outside and “I love you, Mom!” on the inside and leaves it at that) but when I opened it, I realized it was one of those over-the-top poetic cards that takes up both sides with it’s sappiness.
Usually, I place those cards back on the rack before I’ve done them the honor of reading them. They are, how do you say? NOT ME.
But for some reason, I read this particular card and halfway through, began to cry. Not since my bizarre breakdown during Lindsay Lohan’s final scene in Freaky Friday have tears taken me by such surprise.
But I figured the card must resonate and I bought it for my Mom. I even mailed it instead of waiting to see her because it felt more special that way.
Recently, I was involved in a conversation with a few friends who were talking about little things their mothers did for them when they were little. Things they want to pass on to their own kids.
One friend said that her mom used to go away a lot for work, leaving very early in the morning. On these occasions, her mother would always leave a personal note under her daughter’s pillow so her goodbye was there when she woke up.
The other talked about how her mother used to make drawings on the ziplock bags that housed her peanutbutter and jelly sandwiches (back before peanutbutter was the equivalent of bringing a loaded gun to school). So every day, she would look forward to opening up her brown paper bag at lunch to see what her mother at drawn.
For some reason, I couldn’t think of an anecdote to add about my Mom.
What little something would I pass on to Mazzy?
On the way home, I started thinking about chicken cutlets.
Whenever my mom used to make breaded chicken cutlets, she would call me into the kitchen and say that the chicken was ready to go to the beach. She had three stations— a bowl with raw egg, a plate with breadcrumbs, and the pan. I would pick up each raw cutlet with a fork, as my mom instructed me how to show them each a good time at the beach, one by one.
First, they take a swim. (dip in the egg)
Next, they play in the sand. (roll in the breadcrumbs)
And finally, they lie out in the sun. (lie on the pan)
My mother might not be the most adventurous cook but the sizzle of those wet sandy cutlets soaking up the hot sun on the pan was extremely satisfying.
Yesterday, my Mom received my card and called me on the phone to thank me with tears in her voice.
I told her I was going to pass down ‘chicken at the beach’ to Mazzy. That it was one of the ‘little things’ that always stuck with me.
She then reminded me of how she always sang the song “Maria” from West Side Story but replaced “Maria” with “Ilana”. And then after years of singing the song, we were in a random store where it played over the loudspeaker and I was shocked to learn that it did not really contain my name.
She reminded me that she used to whistle outside my bedroom door before she came in to wake me up, to ease the shock of the mornings. And how she always saw me off to school by saying, “See you later, alligator.” She reminded me of going out for Indian food whenever my father was away because he hated it and it was her favorite. She reminded me of pigtails and shrinky dinks and peanutbutter cookies criss-crossed with a fork.
She reminded me that every night she lay down next me as I fell asleep.
But she also said, her own mother didn’t show her much affection growing up and because they came to America after being devastated and displaced during World War II, as a child, she always felt guilty for having fun.
My mother said she wasn’t really concerned with the little things. She wanted her daughters to know, without a doubt, they were loved and to make sure our childhood was filled with laughter and fun.
What better sentiment could I possibly pass on to my daughter?
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What’s a little thing you remember your mother doing for you when you were young?
Oh heavens, I started crying while reading that post! What a wonderful tribute to your mother! I hope I am passing on good memories to my children, even if it is how to throw a football (I am the sporty mom). Whenever it would rain my mom would bake bread, and now I instinctively turn on the oven and begin making bread when I hear rain drops.
That might be the mushiest post you ever wrote.
I love the picture of your mom and precious little one! Beautiful post that has me thinking. I am not sentimental, but, now as a mom, I understand the need for appreciation and a little nostalgia.
Love this Ilana. xo
I find it touching that you’re taking the time for all this while your mother is still young and healthy. Enviable situation you got there.
puddle at my desk this morning, great post. my mom used to pretend to me the “ankle monster” and try to grab my ankles as I ran up the stairs, probably somewhat dangerous but sometimes I still get the feeling I want to dash up the stairs just in case. We also used to sit and draw letters with our fingers on each others back and try to guess the words. Love the little things, they are what matter the most. I wish I could remember that more often. Happy Mothers day to everyone who really gets this post!
My mom would take us to the grocery store with her (she was a single mom and didn’t have a choice). When we got back to the car, she would open up a bag of goldfish, place it in the center console so we could all reach, and let us snack the whole way home.
Sometimes she would take us out for backwards dinner. We’d go out for ice cream and then, if we were still hungry, she’d cook us a hot dog or something for dessert.
Totally needs a kleenex warning! How very sweet. My mom always wrote a note on my napkin that she put in my lunch. And we had a silly game “gully gully” that ended with under chin tickles. Thanks for helping me remember all the great things this morning!
Awwwww, so sweet Ilana. That’s funny about “Maria”, because I sometimes sing that To Rebecca!
I’m having trouble remembering anything specific or “special” about my mother as well. Maybe part of it is that our moms are the ones that are around us ALL the time. Sometimes we take it for granted. The whole is greater than the sum of its parts in a lot of ways.
I’m sure if I think about it long enough I’ll come up with something 🙂
My father died when I was 7 and in middle school suburban Atlanta, it was a weird thing to not have two parents. In 6th grade I went to a new small school and had a difficult time (I was a middle school girl…I’m pretty sure its bad for all of us!) there was only one 6th grade class. One day I came home from school crying after I realized that all the girls in my grade were going to Destin Florida together for spring break the following week. Not only was I not invited to go with all the other girls, my family was not going on vacation at all since my spring break did not lined up with my 3 older brothers break. My mom was very sweet and supportive and told me all the sweet and loving things a mom should tell her weeping daughter. I woke up the next morning to my mom packing my little suitcase. Leaving my brothers with my Aunt my mom and I took the train to the airport and flew to St. Thomas Island for a weekend mommy-daughter trip! She booked the trip after I came home devastated from school. It was my first plane ride, my first solo vacation with my mom and one of the best memories I have of her.
*wiping the tears away* really beautiful post. Happy Mother’s Day to you and your mom!
It’s so nice to remember all the good things, especially since the “my mom drives me crazy” things are so much louder in my head.
My mom taught me how to make meatballs like this:
First you put the meat in a bowl and that’s the mountain. Then you sprinkle oregano over the meat to make trees on the mountain. Then you sprinkle garlic powder to make it snow on the trees. Then mix it all up.
I really love this post. My mom passed away very unexpectedly earlier this year and it is both bittersweet and wonderful when I remember all of the things she did to make my childhood (and adulthood) special. My own baby just turned one, and I hope that I can make him feel as loved as my mom did for me. My mom used to make me a a “toad in the hole” (also known as rabbit in the basket or “the egg and bread thing” according to my husband) on mornings when I had a big test. When I was little, she used to sing along to the Guns N Roses song “Sweet Child O Mine” and it was years before I figured out that song wasn’t about me. During my wedding reception, we had the band play that song and we had our very own (unique) mother/daughter dance.
And now I’m going to have to go find a copy of Freaky Friday to buy for my mom.
DANG.
(Also, thanks for the lovely post. This was just what I needed today. XO!)
Beautiful BlogHer worthy post. Get that one in FAST before mother’s day, it’s beautiful. Especially with that priceless photo there.
It is really wonderful, Ilana.
And the chicken at the beach? Guess what idea I”m stealing for tonight??
xo
My mom made playdough for me and the other kids in our apartment complex from scratch – sewed me cool clothing – took us swimming OFTEN – made me promise not to tell daddy there was peanut butter in his favorite cookies, he loved the cookies and swore he hated peanut butter. She was pretty cool my mom.
Oh wow. Your comment just made me cry all over again! What a wonderful thing for your mom to do for you. I can imagine that you will never forget it.
Okay- your comment made me cry too. I really need to keep a box of tissues next to my computer. I love the mother/daughter dance to the song she used to sing to you- that should be a new wedding ritual.
I’m sorry to hear your mom passed away but so great that you both really made the most of your relationship when she was here.
Carly – this is such an amazing story, I love thinking about your mom trying to book that vacation after you went to bed. She probably did everything on the phone rather than the internet (not sure how old you are:)!! So sweet, i love it!
I’m going to link to this and dedicate my next post to my mom with all the things I remember – the peanut butter cross cookies, her chicken devan with croutons on top, the way she’d sing “Love is Alicia” (my middle name) to the Stevie Wonder song “Isn’t She Lovely,” the way she makes zabaglione in the blender and still makes it for the grandkids, or the notes she’d put in my lunches, or how she’d drive us to Taco Bell at 1am in high school. This is a great post, I’m glad you picked up that sappy ass card.
Well, my mom always told me that in the winter, girls would grow ALL of their hair just like bears did. Girls hibernated just like the bears. It wasn’t until college that I realized you could shave your legs in the winter! My mom is currently battling stage four breast cancer, but the woman and her “gifts” like this one to me, still make me shake my head and smile.
What a sweet post!
My mom was always so crafty. We were always doing something creative together, and she once let me set up my own little jewelry making table (friendship bracelets) beside her table at a craft fair. She would also leave a trail of rainbow glitter from beside my bed to my (slightly opened) window anytime that the tooth fairy had made a stop at our house. You know your mom loves you when she willingly pours glitter all over her house.
My mom and I used to do the back tracing thing, too! We would spell words or draw pictures. I had completely forgotten about that until I read your comment.
When I was little and my mom and dad had split up it left me and my mom. Mom didn’t drive and even if she could we couldn’t afford a car. So we walked everywhere or took the bus. My mom worked at Sears and so sometimes would have to pick me up at the babysitter’s fairly late in the evening for what I now realize was a pretty short walk, but seemed like forever to a nervous 7 year old in the dark. So to make it fun and to calm me, my mom would sing “Whistle a Happy Tune” from the King and I – If you don’t know it the lyrics begin with, “Whenever I am afraid, I hold my head erect, and whistle a happy tune so then I will forget I’m afraid…” It got me through a lot of scary walks as a kid 🙂 The funny thing was I thought my mom made it up. So imagine my surprise in high school when my mom and I went to see the King and I and there were the people on stage singing my mom’s song!! I didn’t really realize how many good memories it held for her too as she she walked up to the podium at my wedding reception, cleared her throat and belted it out for the entire assembled group and told the same story, how singing it made her brave too considering how much she was going through at the time, being young single mom, always struggling and trying so hard to make my childhood perfect. The other night my daughter woke up with a nightmare, it was difficult to console her so I pulled out the big guns and sang it for her. It seemed to work and I am thankful to my mom for that gift every single day.
What a great post and so appropriate with Mother’s Day coming up. Also a good reminder to us busy Moms to remember the days when we were kids and the things our Moms used to do for us. My Mom has Alzheimer’s and hardly knows who I am when I visit so I am thankful you are having us look back to when we were younger.
Lets see, between 3rd and 6th grade we lived close enough to walk home (yes they let us do that) for lunch. Every day my Mom asked me what I wanted for lunch and every day she made me pancakes since that is what I wanted. She never really liked them but would sit down and eat them with me anyway and find out how my day was going so far.
Also on rainy afternoons she would clear off the kitchen table and get some aluminum pie pans and fill them halfway with water. She would give me all different colored taper candles. Then she would light one and let me drip the different colored waxes in the water to make designs in the water and eventually fill up the entire pie pan with wax and what I would call scallop shells. I loved doing that and would do that as often as she let me.
There are two things I remember most about being little with my mom. First is Smorgasborg night. Mom would ask the deli for the “ends & pieces” of the meats and cheeses, which she got at a bargain (I had no idea we were of limited means)and she would cut it up and put it all on one plate with crackers and we could just eat up what we wanted. On occasions when one of us did or survived something that could’ve killed us (I was nearly electrocuted by a wet breaker box), she’d make our favorite breakfast and let us choose what to watch on TV all day. But the most important thing she ever did was when I had moved home after my divorce. She was on EBAY and found a beautiful wedding dress at a steal. I tried to tell her I didn’t need it, but she convinced me to go halfsies on it in the hopes that maybe I could use it and if not, then my daughter could when she grew up. That was in 2001 and I married my best friend in that same dress in 2008. It took me forever to realize that she didn’t help me buy a dress, she helped to buy me hope!
I always hope that my children will look back at me and their childhood fondly. Selfish, sure. But that’s what I want the most.
“egg in the nest” too.
I don’t read those cards at all because of the danger of bawling.
What sweet, meaningful post, Ilana.
I’m seeing my mom this weekend. She’s my everything, even still. But now I love her as a woman, a person I respect, and also as the mom who sang Summertime from Porgy and Bess at bed time.
Hugs.
I sing Summertime at bedtime. That’s been one of my favorite songs since forever. But I knew it as Janis Joplin (courtesy of my mother’s record collection) before I found out it was originally from Porgy & Bess.
Your mom is awesome, as is this post.
I’m already emotional over here today and you just made me even more so.
My mom did so much but I felt extra special when she made me a dress or my favorite apple pie. At bed time she used to line all my stuffed animals around my body saying they were protecting me. She also took me shopping, just us, since I was her only girl. We would go for Whopper and fries from Burger King before we set out to the mall… oh man, those were the days! 😉
This is a wonderful, sweet post Ilana. All those little moments definitely deserve attention.
Happy Mother’s Day to you and your Mom.
Whenever it snowed growing up, my mom spent the day making homemade vegetable soup – a recipe passed down to her by her mother. It was goodness in a bowl, with V8 juice to make it extra tomato-y. We also made chocolate cookies together. So, now whenever it snows, I make vegetable soup and chocolate cookies. When Lil’ Bit is old enough, I hope she’ll join in on the tradition and maybe someday carry it on herself.